"Why do you want to know when I think about my mother...?"
I was lying in bed, attempting to slow my racing mind down sufficiently to allow sleep to occur when a thought revealed itself.
Belief. Denial. Desire. Delusion. Disassociation.
and that is EXACTLY how the thought entered my mind. Five words, one after the other. And they looked like the commercials for The Brick's Year End sale or Nationwide Warehouse at the best of times...nationwide warehouse! NATIONWIDE WAREHOUSE!...and once acircuit was complete, it would start all over again.
needless to say, guess how much sleep I got?
Actually, as it turns out, quite a bit. It was a dream, which is weird. Five words repeating themselves over and over again.
Now, the kicker is whether they were actually WORDS or just my thoughts or feelings being physically represented, which would be cool because then I was subconciously taking an entirely new approach, literally looking at things differently....seeing things for what they really are.
Owen Meany never had it so easy...he had VISIONS...the lucky bugger...
Either way, I consulted with good 'ol Wikipedia to refresh myself with the words themselves as well as the connotations that are connected to them when they are used as terms in the whole psychological world. I also consulted the online dream dictionary for whatever interpretations and/or significance there might be.
Here's where it gets weird, although kind of cool...I love it when this stuff happens.
As I was writing this post, I stopped for a moment to review what I had typed when lo and behold, there they were...five words all on their own, forcing me to look at them...
for what they are.
Five words on a t.v. screen before me....it wasn't a commercial... it was what I would see when I was sitting at the computer writing this blog.
wow...I just got that...heavy...
As I looked at them, I immediately noticed two things...the first four words oppose each other, the pattern being positive, negative, positive, negative (or at least that's how most would feel about those words upon hearing/reading them) and then the fifth word. And the second thing being the fifth word is the underlying common theme of all of the words. And so I thought to myself "Self, there is a common unifying thing here. What is it? The words revolve around the same idea (at this point I was Grissom guiding the other CSI's on where to look and what to look for...well okay I WASN'T REALLY but secretly I wished I was...sshhhh, don't tell anyone okay?) which logically would mean that there is a equally common unifying explanation. Not too bad, eh?? I thought so too...
The five words all involve doubt and failure. The need to remove it or the need to reinforce it. And each word can demonstrate one's approach to doubt or failure. You either do or you do not.
The first four demonstrate a choice. The last word signifies what happens when you do neither...or try.
hmmmm...okay Sherlock, time to investigate...
So, I consulted with good ol' Wikipedia to refresh myself with the words themselves along with the connotations associated with them when they are used as terms; i.e. psychological conditions. I then consulted with the online dream dictionary for any significance/interpretations
that I could find.
Yep. sure enough...there it was. Three different interpretations that all revolved around the same concept.
reassurance.
"The writing itself demonstrates the want of some sort of communication with someone or your own conscious mind. It also denotes a mistake you have made."
"Seeing the writing represents receiving a message. It signifies a connection union between the spiritual and the physical realm. Simply, you are looking for some reassurance."
"And to dream that you are handwriting, represents your self-expression and creativity. Consider the symbolism of what you are handwriting and how it relates to your waking life."
hmmm...
ever have a dream and not sure what it was only to figure it out when you realize you are actually LIVING it...
no more burritos before bedtime.
Oh and one more thing. I changed the blog around yesterday for something to do but also to freshen things up a bit. Don't know why, just felt like it was something I should do and that it would all make sense eventually. Notice the tag below the title....weird...
Thanks a lot Yoda...you weird green little jerk...
Belief. Denial. Desire. Delusion. Disassociation.
and that is EXACTLY how the thought entered my mind. Five words, one after the other. And they looked like the commercials for The Brick's Year End sale or Nationwide Warehouse at the best of times...nationwide warehouse! NATIONWIDE WAREHOUSE!...and once acircuit was complete, it would start all over again.
needless to say, guess how much sleep I got?
Actually, as it turns out, quite a bit. It was a dream, which is weird. Five words repeating themselves over and over again.
Now, the kicker is whether they were actually WORDS or just my thoughts or feelings being physically represented, which would be cool because then I was subconciously taking an entirely new approach, literally looking at things differently....seeing things for what they really are.
Owen Meany never had it so easy...he had VISIONS...the lucky bugger...
Either way, I consulted with good 'ol Wikipedia to refresh myself with the words themselves as well as the connotations that are connected to them when they are used as terms in the whole psychological world. I also consulted the online dream dictionary for whatever interpretations and/or significance there might be.
Here's where it gets weird, although kind of cool...I love it when this stuff happens.
As I was writing this post, I stopped for a moment to review what I had typed when lo and behold, there they were...five words all on their own, forcing me to look at them...
for what they are.
Five words on a t.v. screen before me....it wasn't a commercial... it was what I would see when I was sitting at the computer writing this blog.
wow...I just got that...heavy...
As I looked at them, I immediately noticed two things...the first four words oppose each other, the pattern being positive, negative, positive, negative (or at least that's how most would feel about those words upon hearing/reading them) and then the fifth word. And the second thing being the fifth word is the underlying common theme of all of the words. And so I thought to myself "Self, there is a common unifying thing here. What is it? The words revolve around the same idea (at this point I was Grissom guiding the other CSI's on where to look and what to look for...well okay I WASN'T REALLY but secretly I wished I was...sshhhh, don't tell anyone okay?) which logically would mean that there is a equally common unifying explanation. Not too bad, eh?? I thought so too...
The five words all involve doubt and failure. The need to remove it or the need to reinforce it. And each word can demonstrate one's approach to doubt or failure. You either do or you do not.
The first four demonstrate a choice. The last word signifies what happens when you do neither...or try.
hmmmm...okay Sherlock, time to investigate...
So, I consulted with good ol' Wikipedia to refresh myself with the words themselves along with the connotations associated with them when they are used as terms; i.e. psychological conditions. I then consulted with the online dream dictionary for any significance/interpretations
that I could find.
Yep. sure enough...there it was. Three different interpretations that all revolved around the same concept.
reassurance.
"The writing itself demonstrates the want of some sort of communication with someone or your own conscious mind. It also denotes a mistake you have made."
"Seeing the writing represents receiving a message. It signifies a connection union between the spiritual and the physical realm. Simply, you are looking for some reassurance."
"And to dream that you are handwriting, represents your self-expression and creativity. Consider the symbolism of what you are handwriting and how it relates to your waking life."
hmmm...
ever have a dream and not sure what it was only to figure it out when you realize you are actually LIVING it...
no more burritos before bedtime.
Oh and one more thing. I changed the blog around yesterday for something to do but also to freshen things up a bit. Don't know why, just felt like it was something I should do and that it would all make sense eventually. Notice the tag below the title....weird...
Thanks a lot Yoda...you weird green little jerk...
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